Well, that's the reason why i'm a lurker...
I feel ashamed about my fetishes
I haven't chosen them, and i find that being aroused by something that can never happen in real life (until it can *_*) is like hell.
But it still arouses me... so i can't get up one day and say "ok, i'm done with that things"... i just can't, i've tried. I wish i could tough.
Being unable to fullfill this kind of needs in real life makes me feel frustrated, so how could i even talk about it to someone who knows me in real life?
I'm still not confident about it after years, let's figure facing the outside world... And yes, it happened that i was like "in awe" after watching a scene that inspired my fetishes while in company and while i came up with some excuses, it saddened me greatly.
So i perfectly understand what you mean and that's why i've replied this time.
I hope i have expressed my thoughts well enough, and i'm sorry if it's true the contrary... I understand english nearly perfectly, but my english speaking/writing (expecially with articulated subjects) needs polishing.