Get a phone start shooting. Get a camera start shooting. Make content. Make a Patreon, like, I dunno:
https://www.patreon.com/Coomanfu. Fill it with content. Quit talking about the hard life of a struggling artist, and make stuff people would want to buy.
Maybe don't take a snotty tone to people you want to give you money.
If trends continue, I'll afford a nice camera and edit bay in only 119 years!
(in actuality, working towards getting my own equipment in my own way through hard work of other ways.)
No one *actually* gives a shit about the hard life struggles of the artiste, because all of humanity is struggling. No one wants to hear you whine about having to get a 'real job,' because we all have to work 'real jobs' to pay the rent. Maybe you'll luck out and not have to, maybe not. But the only way that happens is if you make work that makes money so you can quit your day job.
Other people make it work, so make it work. Accomplish things with what you got.