I fear turning into something that is deformed, like not symmetric at all... Like that 80's horror movie, The Fly. But in the other hand, I find disgusting any sort of fetish that involves torture that kills or leaves maimed...
These movies left me traumatized as a child...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NH-8L1iZq20
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MBM-uBfJo4c