Closing my Doors

[Abazaba]

Well spoken. I understand you. All I know is you shall be missed. Hope you find your way back one day. Until then, you deserve to be able to lurk till then. If nothing else hope you still read and comment on other things. Stay active even if it is not art/stories. It is good for you and the community.

[Gaffenheimer]

Sorry about this. Bear in mind that a lot of people on EG-Hentai would probably dislike most BE work anyway.

[vincent_richter]

I find it hilarious how people are giving him shit for this, too. The man got death threats. I'd stop posting, too, if I ever gave two shits what the Internet thinks of me. The real punchline is that those sites are literally one pissed-off artist with a high-priced attorney away from being royally fucked over at any given time. I'm not even talking about hosting, though that does become a concern in U.S. jurisdictions (hope you enjoy learning new languages); I'm talking about nameservers. Run a whois on one of those sites some time, and note how easy it'd be for that all to come crashing down. I, for one, do not enjoy memorizing IP's, especially for dynamic hosts. Anyone who says they do is either lying or insane.

[vincent_richter]

SoylentOrange: So you're cool with people jacking your art, then telling you to die in a fire? Cool. Not everyone is chill enough to react like that.

That being said...

Amazeroth: I wish I could come up with some complex explanation why all the voices here are wrong, and that you have every right to go through with this plan to stop posting completely and forever. Thing is, I can't. I can't because they're right. The biggest middle-finger you can give your haters is to not let them get to you, to not make it public even when they do. When you do that, they win. I know it's rough, cruel, and painful; but, are you really gonna let the shitheads win?

Your choice, but if I drew anything I thought was worth a damn, I'd keep going.

[HC-911]

Amazeroth...

First of all, I am truly and deeply sorry. I apologize on behalf of all those 300 and some-odd people that have wronged you.

But I disagree. Hatred and sorrow, all that does is fester. Getting angry at these people accomplishes nothing. Feeling saddened and rejected doesn't either.

I know more than anyone what it feels like to be disapproved of, rejected and hated.

I don't have much artistic talent. I'm not charming or witty. I don't crack jokes, just my voice when trying to talk to somebody.

All I have is my English skills, and even that's not perfect, not enough to give me any degree of success or praise.

I don't know whether you lot would consider me old or not, but to be the better part of 3 decades old and look back to ask "Was I ever appreciated? Did anyone care?" and the answer coming back is "No."

It does hurt, bro. It hurts a lot. And to throw your fists up. To punch a punching bag or a wall or break a cheap piece of pottery? Go ahead. Vent some frustration.

But listen to me, and this is the point of my message: Get back onthat horse, man. Maybe it's not the prettiest horse. Maybe it's seen more than its share of cruelty.

But I for one get back up there. I do things my way. And I do my best to spread doing things the right way. That is: Being nice and polite and doing my best both for myself and others, despite all the pain and hardship along the way.

If you're looking for a reason, something to make it worthwhile, then consider this: "If I'm nice, that's one less angry stupid-ass message going out into the world." One less jerky gesture, eh?

These guys can be mean and disapprove. But we won't, huh?

Yeah. That's my message.

And I use to think that perhaps the best thing was to confront these people, show them why they're so hurtful. But that doesn't work in real life and it works less on the internet, all that does is set you up for more pain and misery.

So do your best to smile and say "Today's a good day. There's good people in the world and I'm going to do (this) because it's fun and I enjoy it."

That's why I write. And I figure if even one person. Just 1 other person likes what I do, then I AM successful.

Cheers.

[ryguy90]

What a shame to loss a master of the art over the hate of lesser minds.

[vaxon]

You were one of the greats. Im sad and sorry to say i had one story on my phone but i did two things. printed it and gave it a viking funeral and then deleted the story. so you know it never left my sd and was excluded from backups. your work is now consented with the ages.

[tsokei]

Sorry to hear about this as well.

[The Lord of War]

seems rather drastic no? i hope emotion wasn't a major factor in this

[Lurkergg]

Sorry to hear that happened to you.

But do not take any of those emails seriously. They where all most likely sent by the same few people and were made to dishearten you.

Do not give them that control over you. They wanted to use your art without your permission and would rather see no new art then stop what they were doing.

These guys don't no have the ability or will to create so they rather destroy.

[Amazeroth]

Hey thank you all for the positive feedbacks. Some of you guys sended me emails too. Thank you.

In four days i start my vacation for two weeks. I visit old family friends in newport beach. I am very curious about it. It is the first time, after i won a greencard six month ago, that i visit the U.S.A.. I hope, i can relax at the beach and enjoy the american life. In that time i think about all what happend in the last weeks, refill my own batteries and what i will do after that two weeks....

But i can say: I never was a guy to give up. I was very sad about that dumbass emails, true. The "DeathEnd" Email got my lawyer, it is her case now and i allready got a name and the adress of that goofy that wrote and send this mail to me.

But i am sure, you all would hear...or....more see of me and my work. Maybe over blogger or an own page like BustArtist or Snaketrap. My old works are mostly deleted, but i am what i am and i am sure that i need my digital pen again soon to create some girls with growing assets or guys that turn into girls....

Thank you all

[Gagecoalbrace]

I believe I speak for a lot of people when I say take as long as you need to recharge we can wait (some of us that is). I am glad you have decided to not give up.